春天 花开

Pursuit of Happiness?

How does a person define happiness?

What's in life that made you smile?

Forget me Not

At most times I am a forgetful person

However, some things in life I just couldn't forget

Was it a choice to forget?

or was it a mistake to remember?

Run Chicken RUN!

Something great I did this year together with 2 cool buddies on a oh-so coincident date in numeric order. 10.10.2010, We participated & well survived the 5km Nike City 10K Run! Never thought I would do something like this but doing it was fun!

[pictures courtesy of JJ.Hitz.fm]

Sweating does give myself a peace of mind. Things hasn't been too pleasant lately, too much thoughts, too little actions, all too disturbed. Sweating it all in a crowd of energetic people does gave myself a little boost in life. What's not to do, what's not thought to be done? Well let's just do it!

Always wondered to myself that I'm a weak person. Indeed I am. A person who says simply, whatever, maybe, Okay... that's really whom I used to be all these while. I could easily convince other people but not myself. I wished I could say YES so proud & confident! I need more energy boost in life, I felt like a dead fish flipping softly in the desert, so close to death and still not feeling aggresive in searching for the oasis.

I hate myself for the current situation. Tied down in somewhere I don't know if I really belonged. I'm aware that I need to help myself in that, I need to pick myself up and search the light. Life's not about getting upset & telling others how unhappy I am. I wished the next time I sit & write, I'll be writing down my thoughts in better structures, clearly directing myself to where I want to be, to where I will want to be.

Nailing this to myself: I'll mark a better milestone!

stop RANTING. start MOVING!

365 Flash Back

Writing this in the exact timezone where things were taken into place back in 365 days was pretty interesting for myself. The internal emotions and thoughts were flushing so wild and fresh in my mind. Every incidents taken in place were captured into pieces of pictures in different different scenes..

11th September, 2009.

I experienced one of the most tedious day in life packing the 3 fast and furios months I've spent in Sheffield. All the things I've brought from home, and things I got there, even memories were all forced to be chucked into the extra-sized suitcase. On this day, I felt as though I was stood in a middle of many crossroads, but choice to stay wasn't an option. To be back is the decision and to see the world is a plan. How I'd wished the journey were longer, how I'd wished to stay; how I'd wished to come home, how I'd wished to see the world; how I'd wished saying good-bye could be less painful...

I still remember, the last day spent in Sheffield. I'm glad that I got it nicely spent and the memory is still remaining strongly. Nothing could capture a history better than feeling the process of time to becoming a history someday. A special person showed me the best sight and best side of this city. I can still recall the chrips of birds I heard in the peaceful garden, plainly just bird chirps, without a single noise of pollutions. The sounds of trees dancing and leaves falling, the breeze that brushes my cheeks, the soft sunlight and the clear blue sky.. Being surrounded by the nature in my final day was truly amazing. The experience was so solid that even to recall the calmness I've enjoyed could tame my nerves when I'm truly stressed out.

It was one of the hardest day to say goodbye. Simple as it is, it wasn't the most pleasant thing to say when you know you will not able to see this person again. Life's sometimes about unwillingness, which is how we ended up in regret. But having some regrets in life is just like having a new scratch on the car, which nurtures you to be more careful, cherish things and prevent from more regrets!

However, when everything is set back in reality, back into the familiar ground; I wished nothing but the last moments to remained in that particularly short time frame, rather to be an extended version. I just came to realized that something, somehow, things could just be so nice, just being like that. Just like cooking, a little more of this ruined the tastes, a little lesser make it incomplete. Life, you just cannot ask for more.

As I closed my eyes, and as I think of each and every person that have walk through my lives - I felt peace... For this moment, I can only remember those who helped me through, whom made me grow, whom made me a stronger person. Indeed, people I met in year 2009 has made a significant mark in my life. I thought it was one of the most eventful year I ever had so far. I'm so blessed in ways I couldn't imagined.

I was glad that I met a person who opened my eyes on seeing, feeling different things. I was still very glad that I met a bunch of people who almost ruined my life, but turned out making me a better person. Still, I was most grateful that I met a person who carries me through in my darkest days. Nevertheless, my family whom supported me so well made me felt loved wherever I was. I'm very thankful to all these people who picked me up, whom got me out of my own nutshell, and that I managed to come home in one piece.

Life's no take-2. It is not about ruining it once, and fixing it twice. An opportunity is a chance, taking a chance can be a hope. A hope can likely leads to a future. I learned that we cannot bargain with life, yet to tolerate with life, but living life out of the most you can.

You who is read this, you have given me hope, saw me cry, see my smile and you, bring me peace and pleasure in life's little journey :)

Nike City 10K Kuala Lumpur 2010

Getting myself to involve into one of the major public event was pretty exciting! Gonna be something cool this year being part of the Nike City 10K run!

It was overwhelming that my mom was interested to join too when I tell her about this event. As an immediate respond, I get her sign in for this event! Somehow, a huge drawback for her when she found out that the registration fees for her category is RM50! Her respond was so funny when she knew about it and declined to join! Anyway, I'm glad to know that few of my ex-highschool friends are joining the run! Bet it gotta be fun :)

For more info, logon: http://www.nikecity10kmalaysia.com/

女人：敢爱，敢恨。不敢 问。

谁让你心动 谁让你心疼 谁会让你偶尔想要拥他在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦 谁说你的心思他会懂 谁为你感动

如果女人 总是等到夜深 无悔付出青春 他就会对你真
是否女人 永远不要多问 她最好永远天真 为她所爱的人

只是女人 容易一往情深 总是为情所困 终于越陷越深
可是女人 爱是她的灵魂 她可以奉献一生 为她所爱的人

自问: 一个女人的一辈子 要过多少个夜深 才有真正的感动？